4 Şubat 2011 Cuma

Keep breaking my will


Reach the city steps tonight
following the power lines
Met a man barside
with eclipses for eyes
and you tell yourself you wont let them touch
did I say too much did i say enough
I don't know silvia
I don't know silvia
Circle round the room still
have fun breaking my will
i know I can't have you here
with someone else on your skin
and its all my fault for not getting off
so you made it stop, can you make it stop?
you dont know
silvia
you dont know
silvia
Reach the city steps tonight
following the power lines
and your skin is so white
underneath the black night
and your voice cries out for the Coup de grace and the lights go out
will there be a trace ?
That I loved, silvia
that I loved, silvia 
that I loved, silvia

2 Şubat 2011 Çarşamba

Bittersweet Poetry





Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me 
I dont want you, but I need you, 
I love you and I hate you at the very same time 

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad 
Never did this before, thats what the virgin said 
We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says 
God talk to me now this is an emergency 

And she claim she only with me for the currency, 
You cut me deep bitch cut me like surgery 

And I was to proud to admit that it was hurtin me 
I'd never do that to you at least purposely 

We breakin up again we makin up again 
but we dont love no more 
I guess we fuckin then 

Have you ever felt like you wanted to kill her 
and you mixed them emotions with tequilla 

and you mixed that with a little bad advice 
on one of them bad nights 
you have a bad fight 

and you talkin bout her family her aunts and shit 
and she sayin muhfucka yo mama's a bitch 
you know domestic drama and shit 

All the attitude 
ill never hit a girl but ill shake the shit out of you 

but im a be the bigger man 
big pimpin like jigga man 
oh i figure its 

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me 
I dont want you, but I need you, 
I love you and I hate you at the very same time 

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad 
Never did this before, thats what the virgin said 
We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says 
God talk to me now this is an emergency 

And my nigga says I shouldn't let her worry me 
I need to focus on the girls we gettin currently 
But I've been thinking and it got me back to sinking it 
This relationship, it even got me back to drinking now 

This Hennessey, is gon be the death of me 

And I always thought that you havin my child was our destiny 
But I can't even vibe wit you sexually 
Cause every time that I try you will question me 
Say "you fuckin them girls, disrespecting me? 
You don't see how your lies are affecting me? 
You don't see how our life was supposed to be? 
And I never let a nigga get that close to me! 
And you ain't cracked up to what you was supposed to be! 
You always gone! You always be where them hoes would be!" 
And it's the first time she ever spilled her soul to me! 
I fucked up and I know it G 
I guess it's bittersweet poetry

She had the world


She held the world upon a string
But she didn't ever hold me
Spun the stars on her fingernails
But it never made her happy
Cause she couldn't ever have me
She said she won the world at a carnival
But she could never win me
Cause she couldn't ever catch me
I, I know why
Because when I look in her eyes
I just see the sky
When I look in her eyes
Well I, just see the sky
"I don't love you I'm just passing the time"
You could love me if I knew how to lie
But who could love me? 
I am out of my mind
Throw an old line out to sea
To see if I can catch a dream
The sun was always in her eyes
She didn't even see me
But that girl had so much love
she'd wanna kiss you all the time
Yeah, she'd wanna kiss you all the time
She said she won the world at a carnival
But I'm sure it didn't ruin her
Just made her more interesting
I'm sure it didn't ruin her
Just made her more interesting
I, I know why
Because when I look in her eyes
I just see the sky
When I look in her eyes
Well I, I just see the sky
"I don't love you I'm just passing the time"
You could love me if I knew how to lie
But who could love me? 
I am out of my mind
Throw an old line out to sea
To see if I can catch a dream

Past will always be the past



I've been thinking bout, I've been thinking bout
I've been thinking bout you lately
Thoughts take me to when we were close
Addicted to your love, feel I need another dose
I know it's a feeling that should be long gone
Things seem to come up when I hear our song
Golden brown girl, it seemed so long
Since I heard your voice, where did the king go wrong?
Emotions that, that they linger on
I guess cause I never knew a love so strong
So many hot girls I need your warm
The taste of your mouth girl I need your warm
Good food and love I need your warm
This here was made before we were born
A dreamer so I'm a keep dreaming on
It's kind of like 'The Breakup' with Jen and Vince Vaughn

They say you don't know, know, know what you got
Till what u got is gone
Yeah I write such and such, yo a lot but the feelings not as strong
We were like 2 birds that were able to fly
I try to pick the right words to say to the sky
Some days I would try but wasn't able to cry
I never been good at saying goodbye
I take a deep breath when the times is hard
When I reminisce over you, my God
I spent many years trying to be the heartthrob
I guess it's only right that I got my heart robbed
The scent of a room that reminds me of you
A hint of perfume it reminds me of you
Take a look at the moon it reminds me of you
Hope the stars and the gods align me and you
We do what we do and we do what we live
I love this way cause I got it as a kid
With so much to give from it, I never hid
The love that I wrote on the mirror it got smeared
My friends say it was a change for the better
But I say, girl you changed my forever
Relationships they can be as strange as the weather
Rain or sun we can sing this together

30 Ocak 2011 Pazar

I just need some time



I talk slicker than a pimp from Augusta
Who just had his linen suit dry-cleaned, bitches, what's up witcha?
I hate callin' the women bitches, but the bitches love it
I took some sense and made a nickel of it
I'm urgin' all daughters to kiss they mothers
With those lips that all that lipstick covers
You're never too grown up to miss and hug her
And girls countin' on me to be there like missin' rubbers
I'm on some Marvin Gaye shit, a bunch of distant lovers
This ain't the life that I'm used to
Reintroduced to people I've been introduced to
Did you forget me? Or are you too scared to tell me that you met me
And fear that I won't remember, I wish you could still accept me for me
I miss Memphis, Tennessee, my cousins, my dad
The simplistic beauty that all of them Southerners have
I'm halfway across the world with dozens of bags
Feelin' like all four members of Color Me Badd
In one rapper, amazing shit
I got that Courtney Love for you, that crazy shit
I don't drink every bottle I own, I be agin' shit
And I got them wedding ring flows, that engagin' shit
Which one of y'all got fleets on your keychains? The seats for these Heat games?
I really think you stare at yourself and you see things
La Familia, I've been inducted and instructed
To stunt on these rappers we don't really fuck wit
Fuck is up?
Havin' lunch and debatin' Ferrari prices
23 and goin' through a midlife crisis
But trust me, I still deliver like a midwife
And no, I'm not sayin' I'm the nicest, I just live like it
Uh, it take a certain type of man to teach
To be far from hood, but to understand the streets
I never threw away that paper with my Grammy speech
Because I haven't hit the pinnacles I plan to reach
Yeah, you gotta own it if you want it
Kisses all on her body, she tells me live in the moment
And, baby, I'll never forget none of that
Girl, I told you I was coming back

29 Ocak 2011 Cumartesi

Let's play the blame game





On a bathroom wall I wrote :
"I'd rather argue with you than to be with someone else" 
I took a piss and dismiss it and went and found somebody else
Fuck arguing harvesting the feelings, I'd rather be by my fucking self
Till about 2am and I call back and I hang up and start to blame myself
Somebody help !
You weren't perfect but you made life worth it
Stick around, real feelings might surface
Been a long time since I spoke to you in a bathroom gripping you up fuckin and choking you
What the hell was I supposed to do
I know you aint getting this type of dick from that local dude
And if you are I hope you are have a good time
Cause I definitely be having mine

And I was satisfied being in love with the lie
And who to blame, you to blame, me to blame
For the pain and it poured every time it rained
Let's play the blame game...

Things used to be, now they not
Anything but us is who we are
Disguising ourselves as secret lovers
We've become public enemies
We walk away like strangers in the street
Gone for eternity
We erased one another
So far from where we came
With so much of everything, how do we leave with nothing
Lack of visual empathy equates the meaning of L-O-V-E
Hatred and attitude tear us entirely

Let's play the blame game, I love you, more
Let's play the blame game for sure.
Let's call her names, names, I hate you, more.
Let's call her names, names, for sure.




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